in a heartbeat

sitting alone in the middle of the night,
feeling slightly ignorant and tired.

but in a heartbeat, everything stopped;
and i suddenly felt the world run away in a flash.

people and cars,
they pass me by without noticing;

so many things happening,
all at once.

one event has passed,
and another is just around the corner.

is it just my mind playing tricks on me,
or is it my turn to feel it now?


little things are getting on me now. they sink their tiny teeth into my head and it hurts.


i was having such a hard time today, trying to figure things out and trying to make sense of the things that have happened. i reached a fleeting moment where i cried in the shower but i stopped myself soon after pushing myself too hard.


it's... insane.


Keith Urban's Tonight I Wanna Cry, so emo =(

Alone in this house again tonightI got the TV on,
the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

(Chorus:)I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

心真的碎了。